An Ode To The Killer

I know the reason why
I know the reason for your hate
And I know the reason for your pain
I know the reason for my love
And I know the reason we're not the same

God's Love
God's Love is the reason
And God's Love will bring you down.

I wrote the above in a small black journal in 1997, the day after Anthony Martinez was raped and murdered. (The police have this book in evidence and actually presented this page of it as evidence in the Federal trial to kill me, though they never referred to it in their arguments, so the reason that they presented it remains unclear)

This poem came to me while I was driving away from Indio, California (where I am presently jailed). I had to stop to write it down. It seemed important. It ended up being prophetic in a way I could never have imagined at the time I wrote it. It was indeed God's Love, as expressed through the innocence of a little girl, that caused me to stop killing and turn myself in.