Sunday, April 28, 2013

Evolving Crime

Crime evolves, like a living thing. It adapts, and changes in order to survive, and propagate. Modern crime would not survive in the past any more than a modern human could survive with the dinosaurs. Neither could past criminal behavior survive in our modern world. Imagine a cattle rustler attempting to rustle a herd today. He'd never get past the first fence.

And so crime evolves. Someone like Jack the Ripper would never have gotten past their first victim in today's world, not with even the most basic forensic techniques. Even Ted Bundy would not have gotten very far before he was made just another anonymous crime statistic rotting in a prison cell somewhere.

But rotting criminals don't solve the problem of crime. It only forces criminals to evolve. As laws get tougher, and detection gets more sophisticated, so do criminals. If criminals didn't evolve there'd be almost no crime at all these days. The so-called war on crime follows the pattern of escalation that precedes war, not the destructive chaos that defines war. Real wars only come AFTER the escalation (and is unfortunately all we have to look forward to if we allow the escalation to continue).

Soon, criminals will be compelled (by "tough on crime" laws) to commit crimes so heinous and sophisticated that what i did will look almost innocent (I raped and killed four children, and killed three other people, an entire family, that I perceived as, "in my way"). Soon men will attack adults with children right out in the open in order to fulfill fantasies that are shaped by the very social mechanisms purported to stop such crimes. Attacking the means of crime while ignoring the motivation only compells the criminal to find some other means. Where there is a will there is always a way.

Thursday, April 25, 2013

If I Could...

I would rather worship the devil created by God, than a god that created the devil.

(Fortunately, I know better than to worship either.)

The Bad Guy Affirmation

"I am bad, and that's good.

I will never be good, and that's not bad.

There's no one I'd rather be than me."

Wreck It Ralph

Monday, April 15, 2013

Me After All

I have attempted to say this before, but I have yet to be satisfied with my words; as usual. So, I will try it again and hope I can be at least a little more clear.

The reason I stopped murdering and raping to get revenge on what I perceived to be (and still perceive to be) a morally corrupt social system, was not because I realized that what I was doing was wrong. It was because I realized that what I was doing was pointless, and futile.

I wanted revenge before I had this "epiphany" (as it has been dubbed in recent court proceedings concerning my crimes, and the reason I stopped killing even though I could have easily continued). But something made me change my mind. I no longer wanted revenge, or forgiveness. In fact, I suddenly no longer wanted anything at all, except for the Truth to be known.

But, unlike most who want the "Truth" to be known, I realized that it was not a truth that only I knew, or one that I had to convey somehow. Instead, I realized to the core of my being that The Living Truth - as I have since often referred to it - can, and does, reveal itself to everyone, at all times.

In other words, I realized that the Truth was infinitely greater than me, my life, or anything I could possibly think, much less convey with words. I also realized that my entire life's experience was only an infinitesimally small part of that greater Truth. And yet, as a part, my life was no less, and no more important than anyone else's life. Suddenly, the naked little girl standing in front of me, whose skull I was about to crush with a large rock that I was holding over my head in preparation for the killing blow when this "epiphany" came to me... suddenly her life was equal to my own, even superior in certain ways.

But, not equal in the mathematical sense. Her life, and my life, were equal in the absolute sense. I suddenly saw, or realized, that she and I were one and the same in the "eyes" of the infinite Truth. That is why what I was doing - killing her to "send a message" to those who had so injustly hurt me when I was yet just a child (i.e. society) - became a pointless and futile jest. I could no longer send my "message" because I could now see through this understanding - through "the eyes of the child before me" (Shasta, as I have oft poetically claimed) - that the intended recipient of my "message" was ultimately me!

I saw not only that I and Shasta were one, but that we are all One. So killing her in order to hurt society no longer made any sense to me at all. And killing me now, in the name of justice, makes no sense to me either. I can see how it makes sense to someone who cannot see the Oneness, though. And that's why I don't blame them for wanting to kill me. They are me after all! And the message they are trying to send is for their own ears to hear someday, hopefully.