Being a “Man”

There are those who believe that the “definition of a man” is someone (a male) who keeps his suffering to himself (i.e. “doesn't cry like a girl”). In my book, such “men” are weak and cowardly.
It takes strength and courage to own up to and express who you are in your heart (emotionally). Attempting to hide what you feel is akin to hiding from who you are. The definition of a coward, is someone who lets fear determine their behavior. Someone who hides from what they are afraid of is a coward.
I am still such a coward. I have yet to summon the courage to express, and thus let go of, my deepest fears. It is not something I can do with words alone. I think words can help build courage though. But in order to truly face myself, I must do so in front of others.
I question whether the System wants this to happen. I suspect not, but I could be mistaken. It is the only way I will ever “heal”. It would be a miracle if it ever happens.
In the mean time, I am stuck with just being human.