Gibberish

I feel like everything that i write is meaningless gibberish. There is something that i want people to know, but words simply cannot even begin to express it. It was this „thing” (that i sometimes refer to as the Living Truth) that caused me to throw down the rock that i was about to use to kill that little girl on the mountain in Montana back in July of 2005.
I actually realized that i would never be able to express my experience with the Living Truth using words a long time ago. That was why i kept telling my attorneys that it would be better if i said nothing.
People just don't want to know the Truth, because they instinctively and unconsciously know that it will destroy their illusion of life. And it most certainly will! But, what they don't realize is that there is an eternal source of their illusion, and the source will never be destroyed.
People think that the end of their illusions will be the end of their lives. They think that death is the end of life. But, death is only a step on the eternal path of life. It is the „way” that Jesus spoke of being. Being is living through the „Way”. It is seeing that death is not the end; not just believing in eternal life the way you might believe in the Eastern Bunny, but instead realizing at the core of your being that you will never die. It was this realization that made me throw down the rock, and refuse to bring more suffering into the world and hense into the realm of eternal life. I surrendered my mortal life so that all eternal life might be known.