The John Walsh (Witch) Hunt

John Walsh is the quintessental modern day witch-hunter, filled with hatred for imaginary monsters that he tries to make real with words and then projects onto those human beings who have been marginalized by the same social prejudices that Walsh himself so actively propogates.

I'm not saying that the men who rape and murder are not real. All I'm saying is that the only reason they do what they do is precisely because they are human beings, who have been psychologically and socially cornered into behaving so extremely by the very fear and ignorance that men like John Walsh propgate in the name of their false gods (such as “Justice” and “Innocence”).

If John Walsh had any idea of the number of rapes and murders that he has helped cause by pushing “creeps” and “cowards” further and further away from any hope of acceptance (and thus behaving acceptably) instead of boasting so self-righteously of all the men's lives he has destroyed and the handful of children he claims to have “saved” (i.e. children he “rescued” mostly from genuinely loving parents who lost custody for reasons they had no control over), then he'd probably throw himself from a bridge, like the inspector in Les Misérables. I can hardly think of anyone more responsible for even my crimes (I) than John Walsh himself. It was his show “America's Most Wanted” that goaded me more than anything else into lashing out for my own “Justice”. I was the “gun”, and John Walsh was the “finger on the trigger”!

[J.D. July 10, 2015]

Notes:

(I) I don't blame Mr. Walsh for what I have done any more than I would blame my finger for what it does. Blaming him, or anyone (even myself) makes no sense to me as I have tried to explain elsewhere in the Fifth Nail-blogs. When I say that John Walsh is “responsible for my crimes”, I only mean that he, more than most, has the ability to help end the cycle of violence. Not because of the fame and fortune that his own son's death has brought him, but because of the pain and guilt that he has buried inside, beneath all that fame and fortune. As I have often said, it is forgiveness that heals. And the more we are able to forgive, the more healing --- in ourselves and in the world at large --- there is that can take place.

The Principle of Forgiveness

Christian forgiveness requires some «sin» to be forgiven. But, in order for there to be sin, there must be judgement. Since there cannot be sin without judgement, Christian forgiveness implies judgement.

What is judgement though, but the opposite of forgiveness? Hence Christian forgiveness is a contradiction in itself; a hypocritical concept.

True forgiveness is precisely and simply the very absence of judgement. Judgement is merely an evaluation, or opinion, that is authoritative. And by «authoritative» I mean it has universal merit.

There can only be One True Authority. There can only be One True Judge. Only a being with infinite knowledge and understanding (a.k.a. Love) can have the Authority necessary to judge, or have an authoritative opinion about, anything!

That would be «God», of course; or «Universal Will» as I sometimes like to call it. But, no matter what you call It, It is the only Judge that has True Authority to judge anyone, or anything.

And even though «God» is the only Being with the Authority to Judge, «God» judges us not. We are Universally Forgiven! And that is the simple self-evident truth that every great religion has buried at its core.

People are the ones who bury this truth beneath religious dogma. They bury it because it threatens their desire for authority (i.e. power and control over other people) so they can judge, like God; and thus frequently in the name of God, or «godly idols», i.e. ideas that are infused with false authority, such as «justice» or «freedom».

So, True Forgiveness requires no worldly authority. It is «given» freely in the face of all man-made (and invariably false) authority. You don't need to «believe that Jesus Christ is your personal Lord and Savior», or confess that «there is no God but God» or «become One with the nothingness within». All you need to do is look past the superficial and hypocritical teachings of other people who claim to be «authorities», and find for yourself this self-confessing truth that every child knows (before they are taught to forget); that there is no sin but the sin we create by judging (i.e. claiming authority, or to know «right» from «wrong», or «good» from «bad», in any absolute sense).

«Judge not, lest ye be judged», is far more than a mere warning; it is a Universal Law, and the principle of forgiveness.

[J.D. June 26, 2015]

Implications of Infinity

No matter how big or how long or how far you imagine infinity to be, it is always infinitely bigger, longer, and farther. In fact, it is impossible to imagine things about infinity, but we never imagine infinity as a whole. Because even though everything exists in infinity, infinity itself does not exist.

I'm not saying there is no such thing as infinity. Nor am I suggesting that infinity isn't real. It's the only thing that IS real, actually. Everything that has a beginning, has an end; and if it has an end then it already has (ended) and is therefor not real. All «things» have a beginning and an end, so they exist in time and space. But, time and space itself has no beginning and hence no end. So, time and space, a.k.a. Infinity, does not exist; but it IS real!

To be sure, yes, I am saying that, that that is, is not; and that that is not, is. That is the implication of infinity, and it is a self-evident truth; though I admit, it takes an extremely open and receptive mind's eye to see it.

And the implication implies even more. If nothing that exists in time and space is real, and only time and space itself IS real, then anything and everything that is possible --- even the most high improbably --- DOES EXIST! It must only have a means to begin, which is to say that it must be possible, and that is all.

This means (i.e. further implies) that everything that exists, also exists infinitely. And if it exists infinitely then it is, of course, real after all!

How can this be? It sounds like a contradiction, but it's not. The contradiction only appears as an artifact of finite language. If you read these words with an open mind, and contemplate them, as one would contemplate the sound of one hand clapping, then the contradiction will eventually dissolve and only the Implication of Infinity will remain, after the words themselves surrender their meaning to you (i.e. become meaningless).

I'm implying, of course, the path to enlightenment. But, I am also stating an artifact o that path (a way of knowing that you are on the right path; the path of reality and truth, a.k.a. «the Way»). The artifact is this: if it exists, it is infinite; and if it is infinite, then it is real; and if it is real, it has no beginning and no end.

All suffering is infinite; this is «hell». And all pleasure is forever; this is «Nirvana» a.k.a. «Heaven».

[J.D. June 26, 2015]

Twisted Truths

This morning (Thursday, June 11, 2015) I saw a «viral video» on «Right This Minute» («The Viral Video TV Show») that showed two women fighting in a grocery store. In the video you could see a young boy (5 or 6 years old) moving around the outskirts of the fight, apparently the child of one of the women. In the version I saw this morning it seemed that the producers wanted to emphasize the presence of an innocent child forced to witness the violence. So, unbeknownst to me this morning they edited out parts of the video where the boy actually got involved in the fight (by hitting one of the women with a shampoo bottle, and even kicking her in the head while she was held down by his mother). They even had one of the female commenters say ever so empathetically, «Oh my word! And they're fighting like that in front of that poor child!» (or something similar).

I found out about the cut out parts when I saw the same video on «Inside Edition» just this evening. It showed the boy getting involved in the fight, as well as the mother telling her son to punch the other woman in the face while she held her down. It seems that «Inside Edition» had a different «slant» that they wanted to emphasize; that the mother was being a terrible mom for encouraging her son to violence. But, at least they spoke to the mother and got her side of the story (she claimed she was trying to teach her son to «not back down», and personally, I side with her).

The important lesson in all this? It is the oldest lesson of mass media, and one that is still often never properly learned: Don't believe what you see (or are told to see) on T.V. (or in the press, or on the Web, etc...). You'd think we'd know that by now, but a-parently not! ツ

[J.D. June 11, 2015]

SVU Flattery?

They say that mimicry is the highest form of flattery. I wonder if that applies when a popular T.V. show, like "Law and Order: SVU" makes an episode based on your crimes, the way they did mine. 

The episode I'm referring to was actually a rare two-parter, though only the first part (an entire episode) was dedicated to making a monster out of me so the SVU heroes could come to the rescue and save the little girl in the end. The second part (episode) was all about the aftermath caused in the first part.

Police fantasy shows like "Law and Order" are known to take their stories' ideas from real-life crime. But, of course, they rewrite the story to fit the theme of the show (i.e. "good guys" vs. "bad guys"), and suit the main characters' location. In my case, they made the semi-rural home that I invaded into an inner-city apartment, the kidnapped children's older brother (found murdered in the home) became an older sister, and instead of a loose pet dog alerting the neighbor that something was awry it was a loose pet bird.

Despite all the changes they made to make my crime appear in the hero's domain, the crime itself, and the criminal, were clearly copied from the news. The family's home was surveyed and invaded by a "monster" that murdered the parents and teenage sibling solely in order to kidnap the younger children to keep for his sexual pleasure. The children, a boy and girl the same ages as the victims in my crimes, were then taken to a remote location (an abandoned warehouse in the city instead of a forest in Montana) and repeatedly raped, until one day they were spotted in public and the SVU heroes were called in to the rescue.

In the T.V. version of my crime, however, the boy was killed publicly in order to allow the man to escape (briefly) with the girl. And then the girl was rescued later after the heroes sleuthed out the secluded warehouse and killed the "monster". 

It's not all the similarities to my crime (or crimes) that make this show interesting to me, it's the differences! Why, for example, did they choose a bird instead of two large dogs as pets for the victim family? Perhaps because large dogs would have made the "monster" appear bold, instead of cowardly and weak. And why did they depict the man as someone who uncontrollably lusts after sex with children? That is something I have never done. I have no problem at all controlling my sexual behavior and never have --- very few so-called "sex offenders" ever do, despite the "myth" made popular by shows like this. In the SVU fantasy world, the man is shown bragging about his many victims in video tapes from his "treatment" days. I, of course, had many "victims" too, if you count all the older children who satisfied their own sexual curiosity at my expense when I was a child as my "victims", the way the popular news agencies reported after my arrest. 

The news reports were based on supposedly confidential records from my own days in "treatment". But, I never bragged about my crimes, or glorified them in any way. And yet in the T.V. story, the man is depicted as a "monster" with only one craving: to rape and torture children. 

In fact, in the final scenes (of the part-one episode) while the "monster"/man is holding a knife (or gun, or something, I can't really remember) to the head of one of our "heroes", he starts to rant about how much he enjoys raping children. It is precisely scenes like that that really make me question the mentality of the people who watch this crap, not to mention the people who write and produce it! "Monsters" like that simply can't, and don't, exist in the real world. Psychologists have known for a long time (though it seems even entire factions of them have somehow forgotten this fact) that sex crimes are almost never about sex. They are about power and control over some perceived source of pain and suffering that is pathologically associated with sex. So how in the world can so many people still find sex-fiend monsters so believable? It's like believing in sea monsters (which is actually a better analogy than it might seem at first, at least from a sociological and historical perspective).

It reminds me of a show that I see sometimes on the Mexican channel (Galavision) called "La Rosa de Guadalupe", in which problems are miraculously resolved after someone prays to the Virgin Mary for help. The only difference is that the "hero" is Guadalupe (the Spirit of the Virgin Mary) instead of an SVU police squad. In both shows the "heroes" and the "villains" are pathologically unrealistic. And both shows have a devoted fan-base made up of "true believers". 

[J.D. March 3, 2015]

Killing Jesus

By condemning me, society in effect condemns more children to be raped and murdered. The cycle that causes the children to be so condemned is well known and scientifically established. So why do we do it? Why do we ignore the truth in favor of vengeance?

They said that by hanging Westley Allen Dodd they were preventing more children from getting raped and murdered, by «sending a message» to those who would do such a thing. I was in prison in Walla Walla when they hung him there. And I got the «message» loud and clear! Dodd's hanging more than any other single event convinced me that I would never be accepted by society because of what I did when I was sixteen years old (i.e. made a fourteen-year-old by suck my dick, which got me 20 years in prison!). Yes, the message was loud and clear, «We hate people like you and we will kill you if we ever find out who you are!»

Is it really any surprise then that I hid my fantasies, which allowed them to develop completely unchecked by social mores? Is it any wonder then that I learned to lie and deceive people about my real feelings in order to avoid being completely ostracized and condemned before I even did anything? Is it really so unbelievable that I eventually kidnapped children to rape and murder as soon as I could? Isn't that what those whose self-worth depends so much on being able to condemn people like me really wanted? Someone they could openly hate and put themselves above!

All those people who wanted Westley dead will never listen to what I'm saying. Just like they didn't listen to Westley himself when he tried to tell them, «If you kill me, you only make more like me.»

And so now I stand condemned to die. And by killing me our so-called «Justice System» will once again send its message. And more children will be raped and murdered. And more people like me will be condemned. And the cycle goes on. I tried to break it, by taking Shasta home and turning myself in. Jesus tried to break it 2000 years ago by turning himself in and confessing, as I did, to violating society's most sacred symbols of innocence. Jesus wanted to end the cycle of condemnation with his message of forgiveness. But, no one listened then; and no one is listening now.

How many more children must be raped and murdered for our ego's sake? How many more times will the Christians keep killing Jesus before they finally realize what he was trying to say?

[J.D. May 16, 2015]

Being Human

To claim that another human being is «not human», or otherwise somehow less than human, because of something they have done that you do not understand, is just a covert way of saying, «You are different than me, and I am better than you.» It is simple prejudice in disguise, and it has all the traits of ignorance, weak-mindedness and cowardice that typify prejudice.

Ignorance; because it ignores the central tenet of human existence: That we are all one and the same at heart.

Weak-minded; because it does not make the intellectual effort to see past the superficial evidence to the substantial truth that we are one and the same.

And cowardly; because it is fear that causes such a person to try to hide their weak-minded ignorant views from the truth that would destroy their delusion of sovereignty over others.

And so I say, so it is to be human. We are all ignorant, weak-minded cowards; and we are all human! (1) (2)

[J.D. May 17, 2015]

Notes:
(1) I'm no Christian, but I've studied Christianity and it seems to me that this is all the mythical legend of Christ was trying to teach us: That nobody deserves to live, or to be loved by God (the Universe), and yet we do, and we are. It's a simple message that no one who separates themselves from the «condemned» (by calling themselves «saved») will ever understand. Hence, they condemn themselves by calling themselves «Christian»! The Bible says that we are saved by admitting our unworthiness; and hence by admitting (or «believing») the Truth.

(Sub-note: Some Christians do understand this; I have read their words and see that they do. But, these Christians do not identify with Christianity as the source of their only «salvation» and hence they themselves admit that they are only «Christian» by convention, not by identity. They understand that they are not saved by what they chose to believe, but by believing in the Truth, no matter how difficult, and terrifying it is to do so.)

(2) We overcome our human nature only by realizing our divine nature; which is realizing ourselves as one with the universe, and one with each other.