Don't Believe In Me (Believe In Your True Self)

If what you believe is based on something other than what you have personally experienced then it is not true belief at all; it is by definition "make belief" --- something you only pretend to believe.

If you dare not question what you believe then your belief is shallow and superficial. Doubt is not the opposite of belief, or its enemy. Doubt is the harbinger of belief. If not for doubt we could not truly believe anything. Doubt is how we test and strengthen what we believe. Only false beliefs are weakened by doubt and questions.

True belief is given, not chosen. It cannot be earned. It is based on what we experience, not what we think. It is demonstrated by what we do without thought or reason, not by the words we speak or reasons we invent. Faith is simply the choice to trust what we have been given to believe, and not to believe what we have been told to believe. Fear is the opposite and enemy of faith. The only real choice we ever have is to have faith, or fear. All other choices are an illusion that we create out of fear, and in lieu of faith.

If you look honestly within yourself you will find these truths to be empirical. You need not believe me nor anyone else. You need only have faith in what you truly believe in your own heart; not in what you think, or what you have been told. Then you will know, as I know, that we truly know nothing. And from this knowledge all life, all experience, all belief, everything, springs eternal, and death itself is seen as the illusion it is.

[J.D. January 5, 2019] 

It Is What It Is

It has come to my attention that much of the content of this blog is perceived as some sort of defense or justification for my crimes. But, it is neither. I'm not trying to tell anyone how things should be or how they should have been. I am only doing this in an attempt to document and show things just the way they are, or at least how I honestly see them. This blog does not set out to argue in defense of any thing "right" or "wrong". It is just trying to let people see with their own eyes what the system so desperately wants no one to see; what is. I'm doing this because I believe in my heart that real change only comes when we see what truly is, not by focusing on how we think things should or shouldn't be. 

It was only because I saw the "insanity" of what I was doing that I changed my own course of action and turned myself in. Not because I realized it was "wrong"; I only realized what it was. And "insanity" just happens to be a word that suits what I saw, in the world and in myself. But, what I saw does not conform to any words. It was death. It was fear. It was ignorance, and it was deception. It was what it was, and that is all. And seeing it for what it was, without words or even thoughts to confine it, was all it took to compel me to go against everything I thought I knew, and to change the way I was thinking, and consequently behaving. I personally did not change. Only my "truth" changed; or my view of "reality". And that changed everything!

[J.D. Dec. 14, 2018]