The Burning Truth

I have «exposed» things in this blog that I am sure some people wish I hadn't. In particular, my family, and friends, whom I still care deeply about, will most likely be offended. And I have struggled with this from the beginning, debating how much I should and shouldn't «expose», or whether or not to change a few details and circumstances in order to «protect the innocent». But, in the end I have decided that the truth is more important; here's why...

People have been killed, and a lot more people have been irreparably harmed by my actions in the past. But, more importantly, more people are going to be killed and irreparably harmed, including uncountable children, if we don't start acknowledging the truth so we can build the understanding that we need in order to end this insanity.

This blog is and has always been about my most honest and intimate thoughts, memories, dreams, and experiences. Not because I want recognition, or attention, or any sort of perverse twisted pleasure. I only want the truth to be known. Not my interpretation of the truth, or some slanted version meant to express my own views in order to justify my actions in any way. Yes, my «views» are present here, but I have disclaimed them repeatedly throughout as fault, limited, and exclusively mine.

I don't expect anyone to see things the same way I do. I have and do only ask that people read about my views and experiences with an open heart and critical mind, so that the process of understanding why I did what I did, and by extension why people do the kinds of things I did (kidnap, rape, and murder), and by further extension why we harm each other and ourselves so insanely, might be facilitated.

I am certain that my attempt to provide this information as honestly and forthcoming as I have has caused a lot of people great distress. My own blood family shuns me, and I believe they do so at least in part because of my public honesty «exposing» private family matters. Many of my past friends, who are considered successful and upstanding members of society, no doubt rue what I have said, or may say, here in this blog as well. But, the understanding we need, together, to break out of our insanity, together, can only be wrought in the fires of the truth. Partial truths and distorted truths simply do not burn hot enough to soften the social fabrications that support the insanity enough that they might begin to fail to support the delusions that propagate our insanity.

And that's why we blog (by «we» I mean myself, and the few people who put their own personal reputations at great risk for these same reasons). We will never heal if we don't start being more honest, and stop hiding from the truth. So we present the truth here as raw and uncensored as possible (though it is still heavily censored by both prison and other government authorities) so you can decide for yourself what «view» is right for you, according to your own ideology and personal experiences. I believe, for good reason, that even the most objectional and limited views can serve a purpose in the grand scheme, and help reshape our understanding as a society. But only if we let all views into the metaphorical fire I'm talking about. The views that are based on false beliefs and false understanding will burn away soon enough – and a better, stronger, more useful «metal» of understanding will emerge over time. Or, at least that's what I believe.

[J.D. August 20, 2016]

"... the Truth is the only way to change the world ...
All the other processes of slow transformation are always
at a tangent [with real change] (you draw nearer and
nearer but you never arrive)."

Mother of Pondicherry