Lies, And More Lies

I generally don't follow B.S. that most people call “news”, and I don't see very many articles or “stories” about myself or my crimes at all. So, the only time I read about myself is when a friend sends me an article that they found interesting (usually because of some new depth of untruth and deception concerning my crimes or my past that they think shocking or “amazing”). A recent example, and the first article I've personally seen about myself in several years, though I'm told there have been a few, is this one from the Grand Forks Herald.

The article starts off with a bold and telling lie that sets the pace for the rest of it. It claims that I was the subject of a manhunt for weeks before I was recognized at the Denny's restaurant in Coeur d'Alene, Idaho. This contradicts not only the known facts in the case, but it is also the first time I have seen anyone make such a claim. In other works, there is no source for this so-called “information” other than the writer's own imagination; which makes me wonder exactly what the writer was imagining, or more pertinently, what was she trying to get her readers to imagine? (Hint: A witch-hunt can't be a witch-hunt unless there is some sort of hunt to begin with; the important implication being that it's a darn good thing we have the state (i.e. church) officials to hunt down and protect us from such evil monsters). Never mind that the article goes on to contradict itself toward the end when it quotes the lead investigator in the case, Brad Maskell, as saying that he had no idea who “Joseph Duncan” was when I was arrested; I wasn't even on the “radar”.

Portraying criminals as inhuman monsters is an important function of the marketted media outlets, such as newspapers, T.V. news, and such. Being on good terms with the police and other government agencies is critical to the media's ability to obtain the raw information that they package and sell to make a lot of money. So it's crucial that they package the information in ways that will please the police (and other government officials) lest their “resources” dry up. Of course the unfortunate result of this relationship is that the police (hence, the modern state church, which preaches a false religion of justice and freedom) end up controlling the news, not only how it is packaged, but what is and isn't reported as well. And I think that this article in the Grand Forks Herald is a nearly perfect example of what I mean.

And the marketed media's “relationship” with the police isn't the only controlling factor that determines what gets “reported” as “news”. In this article, for example, an NDSU school professor is quoted making more lies and false assumptions about me and my crimes. Professor Thompson, states (apparently without ever reading this blog), “(Duncan) wants to be heard and a true psychopath wants the spotlight on them, it's true narcissism...” If he read this blog at all then he might note that I have consistently shunned “the spotlight” since my arrest, refusing to talk any reporters or accept interviews by several nationally well-known T.V. shows. Every T.V. Show, fiction and non-fiction, that has ever been made about my crimes --- and there have been several --- have all been made without my cooperation or even knowledge (I didn't even find out about the ones I know until many years after they were made, and I have yet to read any of the books about my crimes that I know about either).

    And the reason --- the only reason --- I write for this blog is out of obligation, not desire, to tell the truth, because so many lies and distortions reign in the popular media (i.e. the “spotlight”). This blog gets almost no attention from the media at all, and that's the way I like it. Just because I'm making the truth (as I know it) available on the Internet doesn't mean I'm out for attention. I'm not.

And the article goes on to quote Professor Thompson making several more equally ignorant remarks intended to dehumanize and demonize me (and people like me) in order to justify doing inhuman things to me (and people like me), apparently not realizing that it was precisely such inhuman treatment that drove me to do what I did (rape and kill several children). I didn't do it for pleasure, I did it for justice --- I was trying to bring my life back into balance. I dehumanized and even demonized the people I attacked also, in exactly the same way (with words and self-righteous delusions) in order to justify what I did. So, I'm not blaming Professor Thompson for his ignorance here. I'm only pointing it out as something no different than what I did; no different than what all humans do: struggle for a sense of control in their life.

Thompson says that “the mark of a true psychopath [is their ability to convince] even trained professionals that they're okay.” It only amazes me that people are taken in by such nonsense today as they were back when people like Thompson were touting “the mark of a true witch” instead. And what he is saying is nonsense, because if a “true psychopath” can convince even “trained professionals” that they are “okay” (not “psychopaths”), then how does anyone know who is a “psychopath” and who isn't? The implied answer is obvious; just look for the “marks”, right? Then, burn the witch!

[J.D. Nov 6, 2015]

P.S. This same article also accuses me of rationalizing my “horrific crimes against children one minute” and then pleading for “love and acceptance the next”. I suppose if someone only skims over this blog, looking for what they want rather than seeing what is actually here, then they could interpret even this post as an attempt to “rationalize” my crimes, as well as a “plea for love and acceptance”. But, since my arrest in 2005, when I surrended myself to the police in Coeur d'Alene voluntarily, full well knowing I wasn't even on their “radar”, I have never made an excuse for my crimes, nor pleaded for mercy, much less “love and understanding”. Even in court I refused to accept any “plea deal” that benefited me. In Federal court, where I got the three death sentences, I plead guilty with no deal at all, complete against my attorneys advice --- and later, during the sentencing trial, I asked to represent myself in order to give the prosecutors what they demanded in order to not put eight-year-old Shasta on the witness stand. That is hardly something someone who is trying to rationalize their crimes and seek love and acceptance would do. I told the judge, and the jury, in no uncertain terms, that they should do whatever they thought they must, and that I would have no part in their decision (by trying to pursuade them in any way to kill, or not kill me).

And I challenge anyone to find a single post in this blog where I “plea for love and understanding” for myself. If such a plea is to be found here, then it is for those reading the blog, not for me.

As for “rationalizing” my crimes? I have admitted over and over, both in this blog, in court, and everywhere else, that there is no excuse for what I did. And closest I ever come to rationalizing my crimes at all is when I point out that there is likewise no excuse for strapping my body prone to a cross and pumping poison into my heart. I did what I did because I am a man --- a human being --- and those who judge, condemn, and murder me are no different. The proof is in what they do, and the justifications they craft for doing it. That's all I have ever said, and it is no rationalization. It is the plain truth, that needs to be loved and understood within ourselves if we are to ever stop raping and killing each other.

Nor am I preaching some delusional message of love and acceptance that I think I'm the only one who understands. I'm simply relaying the very reality that became apparent to me and caused me to literally throw down the rock I was about to kill Shasta with, and take her home instead. It is an ancient truth, older --- infinitely older --- than humankind itself: We are One, and Many, at the same time. Every religion that ever was, and is, is based on this primary truth (though it goes by many names and descriptions, it is universally recognized by those who look for the truth within themselves instead of in the world). So I'm not preaching anything new at all --- I'm only trying to let the truth speak for itself, by being as honest and open as I possibly can. I have no personal agenda other than that. And I'm more than willing to give my life, even my personal happiness, in exchange for serving this “Truth”. I'm not even sure why it is so important to me; but, I know it is important, because I have already given far more than my life, and my personal happiness, in Its name (though it doesn't even really have a name, I've called it many things from “the Living Truth”, to “I AM”, to “God”, or simply, “the Truth”). It doesn't matter what you call it, it only matters that you hear It calling you. I did, and I'm not special.