If you have to be taught right from wrong, then it's not right from wrong that you are being taught. It's something else entirely!
(J.D. 11. 30. 2014.)
Wednesday, January 28, 2015
I'm Not The Only One
It is generally assumed that most people who rape and kill do so for sexual pleasure, or for the sense of power and control that it gives them. And yet I have claimed over and over since my arrest in 2005 that I did it for "revenge against society". Some people have said this claim is just an excuse for my sexual perversion, or a kind of denial at best. I'm even willing to admint that there may be some truth in that. But, when I look deeply and honestly within myself I find that for whatever truth there may be to the sexual motives for my crimes there is compelling evidence (thoughts, feelings, and behavior) that revenge, or "false justice", is the primary motive at the core (the same kind of justice that our "Justice System" is based upon). I don't believe that makes me unique though.
I think that the only thing unique - or maybe just somewhat unusual - about my claim is the depth of self perception it takes to make it. If other so-called "serial killers" were to look honestly within themselves I think they too would discover that ultimately a strong sense of social injustice drives them over the moral edge of social boundaries. They would find in themselves a deeper source of their "perverse" sexual obsessions, and one that echoes my own claim of social injustice.
If I'm right, then the highly touted admissions of "serial killers", that they have "no conscience", becomes the real ruse; the excuse, and the denial. The deeper, and hence truer reason for their violence is the plain old fashioned desire to harm those who are perceived to have harmed them, and/or to express their own deeply felt pain and loss by manifesting it in the real world through their crimes.
If we could see this deeper cause of such violence as a society, and take responsibility for it ourselves, then we'd be able to bring an endto the "serial killer" craze that has been infecting our culture for the last several decades. And I'm not the only one who thinks so.
(J.D. 12. 31. 2014.)
I think that the only thing unique - or maybe just somewhat unusual - about my claim is the depth of self perception it takes to make it. If other so-called "serial killers" were to look honestly within themselves I think they too would discover that ultimately a strong sense of social injustice drives them over the moral edge of social boundaries. They would find in themselves a deeper source of their "perverse" sexual obsessions, and one that echoes my own claim of social injustice.
If I'm right, then the highly touted admissions of "serial killers", that they have "no conscience", becomes the real ruse; the excuse, and the denial. The deeper, and hence truer reason for their violence is the plain old fashioned desire to harm those who are perceived to have harmed them, and/or to express their own deeply felt pain and loss by manifesting it in the real world through their crimes.
If we could see this deeper cause of such violence as a society, and take responsibility for it ourselves, then we'd be able to bring an endto the "serial killer" craze that has been infecting our culture for the last several decades. And I'm not the only one who thinks so.
(J.D. 12. 31. 2014.)
The Insanity of Prejudice
Most people, including me, have a learned tendency to fall back on old judgements when they encounter situations that demand to evaluated. We do so instead of actually taking the time to reconsider and reevaluate the situation as we should. It saves time, work, and effort, but unfortunately this habit also prevents us from considering new information when it becomes available, and ends up trapping us in a self imposed web of erroneous information and deception.
I'm talking about the age old problem of prejudice, of course. It has been recognized as the primary source of all human suffering for all of recorded history, and no doubt long before that. Many men have tried to "open our eyes" to the insanity of prejudice, and even promise a glorious new world where freedom from all judgement brings profound peace and eternal bliss for all who find their way (by ceasing to judge themselves).
Christ called it Heaven, that can be entered by "forgiveness", which is the opposite of judgement. The Buddha calls it Nirvana, and tells us that an "empty mind", free from all judgement, is the key that opens its door. Even Mohammad promised his followers a "land of milk and honey" if they would only "submit" to the Will of Allah, which really means trusting devine judgement, not your own (if the so-called "juhadists" understood this correctly they wouldn't be so ready to judge us "infidels" for themselves and they'd let Allah do it instead; but then most Christians make the same mistake; believing that their God has given them the power to judge, which is not only depicted as causing the "fall of man" in Genisis' Garden of Eden story, it is also the exact opposite of what Christ tried to teach!).
Maybe someday we will learn. I believe it is possible - I leaned, from watching the example of a child - and if I can learn this secret to eternal bliss then anyone can. I'm just not so sure if it is likely.
(J.D. November 22, 2014)
Happy eighteenth, "Girl"! I pray that you are as free today as you were the day you showed me the way "home".
I'm talking about the age old problem of prejudice, of course. It has been recognized as the primary source of all human suffering for all of recorded history, and no doubt long before that. Many men have tried to "open our eyes" to the insanity of prejudice, and even promise a glorious new world where freedom from all judgement brings profound peace and eternal bliss for all who find their way (by ceasing to judge themselves).
Christ called it Heaven, that can be entered by "forgiveness", which is the opposite of judgement. The Buddha calls it Nirvana, and tells us that an "empty mind", free from all judgement, is the key that opens its door. Even Mohammad promised his followers a "land of milk and honey" if they would only "submit" to the Will of Allah, which really means trusting devine judgement, not your own (if the so-called "juhadists" understood this correctly they wouldn't be so ready to judge us "infidels" for themselves and they'd let Allah do it instead; but then most Christians make the same mistake; believing that their God has given them the power to judge, which is not only depicted as causing the "fall of man" in Genisis' Garden of Eden story, it is also the exact opposite of what Christ tried to teach!).
Maybe someday we will learn. I believe it is possible - I leaned, from watching the example of a child - and if I can learn this secret to eternal bliss then anyone can. I'm just not so sure if it is likely.
(J.D. November 22, 2014)
Happy eighteenth, "Girl"! I pray that you are as free today as you were the day you showed me the way "home".
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