Masks of Insanity

The generally accepted definition of a psychopath is a person who is incapable of experiencing deep emotions. Or, in more traditional terms, a person with no soul. And the way we identify these "witches" today has fundamentally changed very little since the days when men burned such people at the stake. One of the most tried and true methods of the witch hunt was the trial by double standard. Today we use this same method, though due to the nuances of modern culture it tends to be a little less physical than the torture confessional, but no less impossible for the accused to prove their innocence over the insanity.

Modern witch hunters - excuse me, I mean psychologists - identify psychopaths by their ability to "fake" deep emotion. They even claim that many psychopaths can be more convincing than a genuine person at convincing other people that they have deep feelings, of love or remorse for example. But, how do these psychologists know that the psychopath is "faking" if they can fake better than the real thing? The truth is they don't know; they can't know. And that leaves the so-called psychopath in the same catch-twenty-two as a witch on trial. Just as the accused witch is considered more guilty if she refuses to confess, because only a powerful witch could possibly withstand the torture with her magic, the so-called psychopath is considered even more cold and heartless if he breaks down crying in court, because only a truly soul-less person could fake such emotion.

As an accused psychopath myself I know from first hand experience what I am saying. The few times that I have dared to show any emotion at all in court, the newspapers didn't hesitate to "unbiasedly" report comments from "witnesses" who said I was "obviously seeking sympathy" and "wasn't fooling anyone".

This is why I, like many accused psychopaths and witches alike, usually opt to remain stone-faced and "emotionless" in court. Showing my emotions (that are very real to me) only causes me more pain as they are rejected and turned against me by those who accuse me of being inhuman. The real insanity of it all is that my crimes themselves were the acts of a man who was given no other means of expressing his very deeply felt pain and suffering. It was only when I realized that my pain WAS KNOWN IN ITSELF that I no longer felt compelled to inflict my feelings onto others (i.e. seek justice) and hence ended my "rampage against society" (the faceless entity that kidnapped and raped me as a child myself - by sending me to prison for something I did not, could not, understand). And now, as I stand convicted of our societies worst kind of blasphemy against "innocent angels", and having admitted my own insanity, and confessed my own innocence (and hence responsibility) I am to be publically sacrificed to the false gods of justice, just as the man of legend once was, and still is, for all time. And thus the insanity of the fifth nail is exposed.

(J.D. August 25, 2014)