Shameless Humility

I have said in the past that I would wear my shame for everyone to see out in the open rather than try to hide or deny it. And I did this as sincerely as I could. But, as soon as I had exposed my shame to this light of conscious awareness it suddenly vanished!

It seems that shame does not like the light and prefers to hide like a shadow in the dark recesses of the mind as it envokes defaming emotions that have no substance or base in reality at all.

The truth is I have nothing to be ashamed of. And, I see this more clearly now that my shame has been exposed and expunged. Yes, I am perverted, but who isn't? Most men are sexually aroused by a woman's breasts. But, that is no less perverted than being aroused by another man's penis, or even a child's body for that matter. All of these perversions have been alternately embraced and scorned by different cultures throughout history, and equally so.

Perhaps nature herself is the greatest pervert of all! Is she wasn't then none of us would be here. Perversity is the prereqvisit of diversity, which we all know is a crucial and vaunted element for the health and survival of all living organisms. Every species, in fact every entity on this planet, must tolerate perversion or die from an inability to adapt. Perversion lives at the heart of Darwin's brain child; evolution.

so, my mistakes and my perversions, are justified in this sense, but not excused! They are justified in the name of nature and humankind, but inexcusable in the face of higher truth and love. I guess what I'm saying is no different than what I have been trying to say all along, or at least since my arrest (in 2005) after I had somehow and unexpectedly woken up to the higher truth I speak of.

I'm saying simply that my real crime was not kidnapping, rape, or even murder. Those things are no more than natural perversions (i.e. variations) of human nature. My real crime was being fearful and ignorant (i.e. hateful) of the Living Truth! This is what caused my perverse behavior and perverted my mind. It is what causes all perversion.

But, being fearful and ignorant is nothing to be ashamed of either - though it certainly demands that we be humble in our estimations of our worth and importance. That is to say, I have come to realize that shame is a poor substitute for genuine humility!