Suffering is Life

I realize how the media and prosecutors portray people like me as angry, selfish, spiteful, uncaring and even incapable of any meaningful human emotions such as compassion or love. It is ironic that up until the moment that I finally admitted to myself that there was something very seriously wrong with me I believed the same things about the police and society in general. I honestly thought that most other people were pigs, and as such they were less aware, less emotional, and yes, less human than me.
To me society and its children annonymously were fair game since they could not suffer the way I suffered. And I earned the right to punish them because of how they so callously made me suffer without just cause.
I realize now, of course, that every living thing suffers just as I do. In fact, I have come to understand that to live is to suffer.
It is not that we must suffer in order to live. Suffering is not a cause, nor is it a necessity of life. Suffering and living are one and the same. The more conscious we are, the more alive we are, and the more suffering we gratefully experience.
It is this suffering, life itself, that we run from in fear by hurting other people, seeking what we call justice, and condemning others for our own suffering. By doing so we become less conscious, we „move away from the light” of life (consciousness) and deny the truth of our being. We may then think we suffer less, but we also live less.