The Problem With The Idealistic Life (The Christian Fantasy Life)

Christianity is a fantasy-based religion. Everything that Christians claim to believe (but don't really believe, judging simply by how they typically behave) is based on romanticised ideals that have little or no basis in reality. I challenge any Christian to show me otherwise. They might try pointing to their Bible as “proof”, but the problem with that is pretty obvious, especially given the academically established questionable origins of everything in it, not to mention the ridiculously fantastic and contradictory content.

So all Christians ultimately fall back on the “belief”-argument. They say that “God tests our faith” and demands (according to their Bible..) that we believe what “He” tells us to believe (according to their Bible..). But, if we believe in something that directly contradicts our experience and irrefutable evidence, then that's not belief at all; it's make-belief! And the only reason psychologists don't call Christians delusional is because they make a specific exception when defining delusional thinking that says if a person believes what their peers believe, no matter how much it contradicts the evidence of reality, then it is not a “delusion”. The DSM (the standard “Diagnostics and Statistics Manual” that all psych-doctors use for diagnosing mental illness, which I am quite familiar with because of the “competency” question in my death penalty case (I)) does not say what such fantasy-based-belief actually is (they only say what it is not..). They very carefully avoid defining it at all because the only definition that fits would be “mass delusion”, which wouldn't make the DSM very unpopular with Christians.

Of course, the problem with delusional thinking is well-established and documented. If you live your life according to beliefs that are not based on reality, then you must either spend a lot of time and energy defending and compensating for all the discrepancies that arise, or suffer the consequences. Ultimately, of course, the consequences, and all the blame for the consequences, ends up getting projected onto people like me, the “sinners”, or “demons”, or just “evil” in general.

So the idealistic Christian life is not only a fantasy and a lie; it is the source of more pain, suffering and misery in this world than hell itself could ever contain; it is the very crucible of hell! And that's why I criticize Christianity so often. It is not because I hate them, or judge them. I am only trying to expose their hypocrisy, and the hellish consequences of it.

[J.D. August 26, 2015]

Notes:

(I) The man who literally wrote the definition for “delusional thinking” in the DSM actually testified at my competency hearing a couple of years ago. He told the court that because my beliefs were not practiced by any known religious group, they were delusional. Since then I have found numerous writings that reflect and support what I believe, but as this man said, no organized religious groups; thank God!

Silencing The Wolves

I've been told there has been some media attention concerning this blog recently. It seems some “people” feel that a criminal like me should not be allowed to voice their views publically in such an unfiltered format.

I couldn't express the depth of such ignorance even if I tried. So, I won't. And, instead I'll simply comment on the reason why this kind of small-mindedness even exists.

These “people”, who would so gladly have the truth silenced just because it comes from the mouth of a “monster”, can't think for themselves. They depend on modern media to tell them what they currently accepted “trending” thoughts are for the day. So, the mere thought that their precious medium could be contaminated with “unpopular” ideas, is terrifying to them.

Of course, it's not just the modern media junkies who fear such exposure to “unpopular” ideas. This is the standard reaction that the “sheep” (herd animals) have anytime they sense that the herd-mentality might ot be as “safe” as they thought. It is the age old source of all censorship; “baaa baaa baaa!” the sheep cry!

“Silence the wolf!”

But, silencing the wolf does nothing to remove the threat. In fact, it is the silent wolf that the sheep should fear, for she is the one on the hunt.

And what about that comforting voice that guides the sheep to pasture; the voice that tells them where to graze, when to sleep, and how to mate; the voice that comes from atop of the hill, speaking in a language that the sheep will never comprehend beyond the short “soundbite” commands that tell the herd what to think? What about this voice that leads them, protects them, and assures them all is well? Isn't that the voice they should really fear? The one that feeds not on one or two weaklings or strays, but ultimately devours the entire flock! It is the voice of the most deceptive, dangerous, destructive, and ravenous creature that ever lived. It is the voice of the shepherd; a calm human voice that turns the younglings into lamb chops. It is the voice of the devil himself, and the greatest predator of all.

So, “Woof woof woof!”

I will not be silent, as long as I can speak, as long as I can warn, as long as I can remind the “sheep” that I am here, and that my kind will always be here, warranted by nature herself, to restore balance, and health to the herd, by exposing the truth, and ripping open the belly of those who deceive, and the minds of those who would be deceived. I remind the shepherds of this world, that no predator can tame the wilderness for long. And, as long as there is a wilderness, there will be wolves, silenced or not.

[J.D. August 14, 2015]

The Modern American Underclass

The process of rationalizing the unfair treatment of prisoners is generally supported by the ignorant masses. T.V. shows have always depicted “Law and Order” over “Crime and Chaos” as “Justice” (i.e. fairness). But, it isn't fairness at all. It is a big lie that only exists to conceal the cruelty of a mechanism (i.e. government) that lives solely to benefit a privileged class; a.k.a. the ruling class.

All societies have three classes, no matter how well concealed or glossed over they are. And the United States of America is no exception. These are; the underclass, the working class, and the ruling class. If you don't already know and recognize these classes, even in the U.S., then I suggest you educate yourself. (And since you are reading this on the Internet, there's absolutely no excuse for NOT educating yourself!)

The underclass has always been a thorn in the side of the ruling class. Most societies have dulled this thorn by implementing a system of slavery that attempts to derive some benefit from the underclass by brutal and direct control and oppression. Modern societies, which no longer depend on human labor to thrive, have found other ways to dull this thorn.

Have you ever noticed that as slavery (and serfdom, etc...) declined, the concept of “incarceration” rose? The correlation is no accident! And the fact that even to this day our prisons are filled with mostly “colored” people (the underclass) should be no surprise. (Of course, you don't have to be “colored” to be a part of the underclass. All you have to be is sufficiently different from the ruling class, and of no benefit to them.)

[J.D. August 9, 2015]

It's Not Fair, At All!

It's a well known fact that prisoners who think their imprisonment is unfair are far more likely to break the rules in prison, and commit new crimes after they are released. In fact, prisons commonly use this as part of their screening and classification process for prisoners when deciding security level and even parole eligibility. But doing so they are only treating the prisoners who already feel unfairly treated even more unfairly. This is a good example of how the system propagates the so-called "criminal mentality" that it turns around and uses to justify its own existence.

What if, instead of blaming prisoners for feeling unfairly treated, we did things instead to make them feel more fairly treated. Odds are they will then be LESS likely to commit more crime, and MORE likely to obey the rules in prison.

And, there are all sorts of ways to make prisoners feel more fairly treated. Some have been employed in the past, but only after prisoner behavior became so out of control that prison officials were forced to employ them. I'm talking about simple things like grievance proceedures, and disciplinary appeals. But, there are many more simple ways to make a prisoner feel more fairly treated, unfortunately most of them involve actually treating them more fairly. ystem itself The truth of the matter is that the reason most prisoners feel that they are being treated (and punished) unfairly is because in most cases they ARE! The system itself, of course, denies this. And by denying it the system justifies even more unfair treatment! The trick is simple; the system claims that most prisoners ARE treated fair, and the prisoners only think they are being treated unfairly because of their "criminal mentality". Therefor, the system is justified in treating the prisoners even more unfairly, all in the guise of justice. The idea of course is that if we punish them enough they should eventually "learn their lesson"; which is, of course, that they AREN'T being treated unfairly at all (even though they ARE!)!

How does that work? It doesn't, of course. What it does do is create the illusion of justice, all at the expense of more crime, more criminals, and more victims; just so the system can have more control and more power, and more money to do less, and directly cause more harm. All in the name of a false god it calls, "Justice".

(J.D. July 30, 2015)

The John Walsh (Witch) Hunt

John Walsh is the quintessental modern day witch-hunter, filled with hatred for imaginary monsters that he tries to make real with words and then projects onto those human beings who have been marginalized by the same social prejudices that Walsh himself so actively propogates.

I'm not saying that the men who rape and murder are not real. All I'm saying is that the only reason they do what they do is precisely because they are human beings, who have been psychologically and socially cornered into behaving so extremely by the very fear and ignorance that men like John Walsh propgate in the name of their false gods (such as “Justice” and “Innocence”).

If John Walsh had any idea of the number of rapes and murders that he has helped cause by pushing “creeps” and “cowards” further and further away from any hope of acceptance (and thus behaving acceptably) instead of boasting so self-righteously of all the men's lives he has destroyed and the handful of children he claims to have “saved” (i.e. children he “rescued” mostly from genuinely loving parents who lost custody for reasons they had no control over), then he'd probably throw himself from a bridge, like the inspector in Les Misérables. I can hardly think of anyone more responsible for even my crimes (I) than John Walsh himself. It was his show “America's Most Wanted” that goaded me more than anything else into lashing out for my own “Justice”. I was the “gun”, and John Walsh was the “finger on the trigger”!

[J.D. July 10, 2015]

Notes:

(I) I don't blame Mr. Walsh for what I have done any more than I would blame my finger for what it does. Blaming him, or anyone (even myself) makes no sense to me as I have tried to explain elsewhere in the Fifth Nail-blogs. When I say that John Walsh is “responsible for my crimes”, I only mean that he, more than most, has the ability to help end the cycle of violence. Not because of the fame and fortune that his own son's death has brought him, but because of the pain and guilt that he has buried inside, beneath all that fame and fortune. As I have often said, it is forgiveness that heals. And the more we are able to forgive, the more healing --- in ourselves and in the world at large --- there is that can take place.

The Principle of Forgiveness

Christian forgiveness requires some «sin» to be forgiven. But, in order for there to be sin, there must be judgement. Since there cannot be sin without judgement, Christian forgiveness implies judgement.

What is judgement though, but the opposite of forgiveness? Hence Christian forgiveness is a contradiction in itself; a hypocritical concept.

True forgiveness is precisely and simply the very absence of judgement. Judgement is merely an evaluation, or opinion, that is authoritative. And by «authoritative» I mean it has universal merit.

There can only be One True Authority. There can only be One True Judge. Only a being with infinite knowledge and understanding (a.k.a. Love) can have the Authority necessary to judge, or have an authoritative opinion about, anything!

That would be «God», of course; or «Universal Will» as I sometimes like to call it. But, no matter what you call It, It is the only Judge that has True Authority to judge anyone, or anything.

And even though «God» is the only Being with the Authority to Judge, «God» judges us not. We are Universally Forgiven! And that is the simple self-evident truth that every great religion has buried at its core.

People are the ones who bury this truth beneath religious dogma. They bury it because it threatens their desire for authority (i.e. power and control over other people) so they can judge, like God; and thus frequently in the name of God, or «godly idols», i.e. ideas that are infused with false authority, such as «justice» or «freedom».

So, True Forgiveness requires no worldly authority. It is «given» freely in the face of all man-made (and invariably false) authority. You don't need to «believe that Jesus Christ is your personal Lord and Savior», or confess that «there is no God but God» or «become One with the nothingness within». All you need to do is look past the superficial and hypocritical teachings of other people who claim to be «authorities», and find for yourself this self-confessing truth that every child knows (before they are taught to forget); that there is no sin but the sin we create by judging (i.e. claiming authority, or to know «right» from «wrong», or «good» from «bad», in any absolute sense).

«Judge not, lest ye be judged», is far more than a mere warning; it is a Universal Law, and the principle of forgiveness.

[J.D. June 26, 2015]

Implications of Infinity

No matter how big or how long or how far you imagine infinity to be, it is always infinitely bigger, longer, and farther. In fact, it is impossible to imagine things about infinity, but we never imagine infinity as a whole. Because even though everything exists in infinity, infinity itself does not exist.

I'm not saying there is no such thing as infinity. Nor am I suggesting that infinity isn't real. It's the only thing that IS real, actually. Everything that has a beginning, has an end; and if it has an end then it already has (ended) and is therefor not real. All «things» have a beginning and an end, so they exist in time and space. But, time and space itself has no beginning and hence no end. So, time and space, a.k.a. Infinity, does not exist; but it IS real!

To be sure, yes, I am saying that, that that is, is not; and that that is not, is. That is the implication of infinity, and it is a self-evident truth; though I admit, it takes an extremely open and receptive mind's eye to see it.

And the implication implies even more. If nothing that exists in time and space is real, and only time and space itself IS real, then anything and everything that is possible --- even the most high improbably --- DOES EXIST! It must only have a means to begin, which is to say that it must be possible, and that is all.

This means (i.e. further implies) that everything that exists, also exists infinitely. And if it exists infinitely then it is, of course, real after all!

How can this be? It sounds like a contradiction, but it's not. The contradiction only appears as an artifact of finite language. If you read these words with an open mind, and contemplate them, as one would contemplate the sound of one hand clapping, then the contradiction will eventually dissolve and only the Implication of Infinity will remain, after the words themselves surrender their meaning to you (i.e. become meaningless).

I'm implying, of course, the path to enlightenment. But, I am also stating an artifact o that path (a way of knowing that you are on the right path; the path of reality and truth, a.k.a. «the Way»). The artifact is this: if it exists, it is infinite; and if it is infinite, then it is real; and if it is real, it has no beginning and no end.

All suffering is infinite; this is «hell». And all pleasure is forever; this is «Nirvana» a.k.a. «Heaven».

[J.D. June 26, 2015]