One Choice

I have already said that as children of God it is given to us to play God by pretending to judge (condemn and glorify) other people and circumstances. But, behind our immaturity is a universal dynamic that ultimately determines our capacity to either play God or Be God. That dynamic is the result of a single choice that everything in the universe must make.

Yes, we do have free will, the freedom to choose. But, in the final analysis that freedom comes down to one, and only one, choice. It is a choice we all must make. We can choose to know the ultimate Truth, or to remain ignorant. To know the Truth is to be conscious of it. It is not a choice you make with reason or rational. To remain ignorant is to remain unconscious of the choice itself. To be unconscious of this choice is to be considered but a child of God, and to be condemned by your own ignorance and your own choice (i.e. your own judgement) to experiences that seem either random (chaotic) or determined by other pretend gods (human or otherwise).

The events in the life of such a child sometimes appear to the child as its own “choices” as well. But these are just pretend choices and their purpose is the same as all the other pretend experiences that the child of God has. We pretend to judge, pretend to suffer, pretend to love, and even pretend to die. But, as I have said, we have only one real Choice.

The Choice itself cannot be truly articulated in finite terms. Even though I have not yet attempted to expound on the actual Choice, I have already made several statements about it that inevitably imply things about the One Choice that are not quite right. Just for example, I stated that everything in the universe must make this One Choice. But the word “everything” does not truly express the nature of everything. It implies that there is more than one “thing” in the universe, which is not really true. But it is also not really true to say there is only One Thing (or God), though in some contexts this is closer to the Ultimate Truth.

The most correct expression is in regards to the duplicity or unity of the universe would be to say that it is both One and Many at the same time. But this too is not a true and correct picture, not to mention that it is also very confusing for most people, especially God's children (or perhaps more correctly, God's Child, since the many-one aspect of the universe applies to God's children-child as well).

So you can see then that the One Choice is also an infinity of choices at the same time. It cannot be grasped by any means of finite reason. You must make this choice in your “heart” as they say, not with your mind. But, it is possible to know what choice you have made, that is, to know the Ultimate Truth. This is why the mystics who have made the right choice always say that you will know when you do. But if there is any doubt or question in your heart at all, then you are still only pretending.

Be patient, the time will come for you to make the right choice. In the meantime have faith. It will only be pretend faith of course, until you have come to know the Ultimate Truth. But, you do not need to know the Ultimate Truth in order to have faith in it. And nor will having faith help you to know the Truth. But it will ease your suffering and make the games of childhood a little more tolerable. Especially as you get close to maturity and the games become more and more transparent and superficial to you.

There is nothing you can do consciously in order to facilitate your knowledge of the One Choice, any more than you can consciously make your hair grow (or not grow). People who tell you to “not sin”, and “obey God”, or even “believe in Christ”, are pretenders who have yet to realize the choice they are making to pretend. But, at the same time, people who have made the right choice will, without conscious effort, do all of these things, and more.

The Bible does not tell us how to make the right choice (nor does the Bible itself even claim to do so). No book or person can tell you that. But the Bible, and many other books of truth, can tell you how you will know when you or someone else has made that choice. Such a person will not sin, will not lie, will love unconditionally, and will make forgiveness mode of justice. But, doing all of these things does not constitute making the right choice, or salvation for that matter.

P.S.: I'm still only pretending myself. But, I sense strongly that I am on the cusp of true understanding. I believe that I have already made the “Right Choice” at least once (when I brought Shasta home and turned myself in), but I was unable to sustain that choice (i.e. keep making the right choice). I also suspect that once I am able to make the Right Choice again, then I will probably not bother attempting to write about it. I will fully realize the futility of words, as I only partly realize now. In the meantime I continue to ignorantly hope (pretend hope?) that my words will at least help others get to the cusp as well. No words will ever take you further, they can at best only point you in the right direction.

My Ignorance Defines Me

Most people, methinks, define themselves according to what they think they know. But, when I was just 23 years old (in prison of course) I realized that more than anything else, my ignorance defines me.

What I don't know separates me from the universe in which I find myself more than what I know. And since ignorance seperates, and knowledge joins, it is what I don't know that determines my limitations and my boundaries. And isn't that what a definition is? A description of limitations and boundaries.

Even when we think in terms of what we know, we are really only conversely experiencing what we don't know. I might think that I know my eyes are blue gray, but doesn't that just mean that I don't know how to say what color they really are? In other words, I don't know what color my eyes are at all, unless I am actually looking at them in the mirror. And then they are the color they appear, not the color of some words or even ideas I might hold in my mind.

It is thus my ignorance that I express when I believe myself to be expressing knowledge. And it is this ignorance that defines me.

Originally written by Joseph E. Duncan III - April 2, 2011 – 11 pm